Upset
Yes, Im superbly upset but I juz pretend tat Im not... I still put a smile on my face n still pretends as if nothing has happened... sigh... wat to do?? Takde rezki nampaknye..
Its not so serios but Ive been wanting to do tis since January... Its my family potrait wif me wearin my graduation gown!!! Everyone has it n I dont!! Y? Cos everyone is so bz!! Despite givin advance notice, last min anyting can happen n now there wont b a family potrait taken tis Sun!!
D delay started from d beginnin of d year:
January I delayed cos Anita Sarawak was in town n I was busy wif her show
Feburay I was away moz of d time... In KL for AJL n short trips
March Everyone was stressed up wif werk. APM n Adam's album launch was makin me bz
April Was bz planning my customers' wedding
May Janz exams' period
June More wedding to plan. Besides, there's also KRU Live n Kicking Concert to be involved in.
July Weddings to plan
August Janna's bday, bz planning her party n since she was so down tat period of time, we forgo it n b by her side
Sept Ayah is being posted to Nusajaya for big projects
Oct Bulan puasa
Nov Again its being delayed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Arrrggghhhhh!!! Im truly awefully frustrated!!! Tak kan nak tunggu till I get my Masters?? No way! Tat will b another potrait... sigh... i gif up!
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JJ@2215hours, 24thNovember2006
Upset
Yes, Im superbly upset but I juz pretend tat Im not... I still put a smile on my face n still pretends as if nothing has happened... sigh... wat to do?? Takde rezki nampaknye..
Its not so serios but Ive been wanting to do tis since January... Its my family potrait wif me wearin my graduation gown!!! Everyone has it n I dont!! Y? Cos everyone is so bz!! Despite givin advance notice, last min anyting can happen n now there wont b a family potrait taken tis Sun!!
D delay started from d beginnin of d year:
January I delayed cos Anita Sarawak was in town n I was busy wif her show
Feburay I was away moz of d time... In KL for AJL n short trips
March Everyone was stressed up wif werk. APM n Adam's album launch was makin me bz
April Was bz planning my customers' wedding
May Janz exams' period
June More wedding to plan. Besides, there's also KRU Live n Kicking Concert to be involved in.
July Weddings to plan
August Janna's bday, bz planning her party n since she was so down tat period of time, we forgo it n b by her side
Sept Ayah is being posted to Nusajaya for big projects
Oct Bulan puasa
Nov Again its being delayed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Arrrggghhhhh!!! Im truly awefully frustrated!!! Tak kan nak tunggu till I get my Masters?? No way! Tat will b another potrait... sigh... i gif up!
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JJ@2215hours, 24thNovember2006
LDR... Long distance relationship... ??
I tink I ought to get 1 or at least try to haf 1. Well u see, Im so busy wif werk; my wedding planning business n also wif KRU stuffs tat I dun haf enuf time to date. So by havin a LDR, it's so easy! I dun haf to meet him everyday, I dun haf to be fetched... I am free to go out wif frends n family, even attend family or private functions/parties... Im much available, juz tat Im seeing someone of a different country. Totally awesome. Wif existence of 3g n internet, it makes all tis so possible!
But I guess d trust muz be there. Not only tat, u muz haf faith in each other, keep tat burning sensation goin and most importantly, communication. Simple yet moz find it hard. Not onli for couples havin LDRs, but even couples who stayed in 1 country, not to say in d same estate can haf difficulties in copin wif tis issue of d heart.
Instead of spending time finding each other's fault n weaknesses, take d time to evaluate urself. For we, humans r never perfect. Juz look at our 5 fingers, they come in all shapes n sizes. Thus it very important for us, to learn n accept tat particular someone as he/she is. Accept him/her not onli for 2day but also his/her past, present n esp future. Cos u'll never noe wat d future will be.
For my frends out there who's in relationship, be it long distance or short distance, do 1 ting. Spend quality time getting to noe him/her; get to noe him/her better, build d trust, faith n Insya Allah God will lead u to his/her heart n unite them. N moz importantly wen ur hearts unite pls do not hurt each other, via words or actions.
N lastly, appreciate wat God has send u.
Im not a love guru or am I Oprah in d makin, but thru experience n observation tis is d least I can penn down. In d meantime, while u guys r in love, haf fun! While Im gona find my LDR soon ;)
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JJ@2130hours, 23rdNovember2006
There's so many tings in my head rite now n I juz fil like pouring everyting out! But I guess I'll juz write abt my last weekend ;)
Fun! Fun! Dirly n Putra, Dad's working collegeau aged 29 n 27 respectively (yelah nnt korang ingatkan my dad's frends yang 40plus... ala2 Datuk K! hehe) came over to our place, had breakfast b4 heading to fetch Tok Teh, Nek Teh n their grandson, Akil. Its a bright sunny Saturday morning n Im hoping d weather will last till late. We had a pit stop @Nusajaya Petronas wen Dirly's Volvo broke down! Damn!! Wasted at least 45mins b4 another car came to rescue. Proton pun Proton lar, janji boleh lari... N it reali does! Power plak tu... Buatan Msia!! hehe... So reached Pontian ard 2plus. Brani dam was superb n they still practise tis spirit of "bergotong royang". Uncle Haq cooked brani, Auntie Saodah cooked ayam masak merah etc. There's so many unfamiliar faces whom are actually related to me by blood; Aunties, Uncles, handsome male kuzins who were married (damn!!) n cute lil children. Wat amazes me is tat d whole stretch of street belongs to them! Uncle Haq's house is d 1st big white bungalow n behind his r yellow, blue n other houses, followed by a big field of durian, chiku n other plantations. So there's no gates n d doors r kept agil... U can run from 1 house to another without worryin.. Tak cukup gula u go to d yellow house behind n take some, or not enuf rooms u move to d white house up ahead. Reali awesome! N wat I heard is tat if d plantation were being cropped away, there's Strait of Malacca up for view... Fuyoo! Thanks to my great grandpa! Jakunism... Budak bandar masuk kampung!! So we snapped photos, eat lotsa stuffs n played in d rain tat causes me flu shortly afta!
We went off to Pak Lung Razak's place in Kampung Melayu, JB. All my other 2nd kuzins were there for BBq... So makan lagi... But tis time I wasnt so hype up like earlier... Mayb d yellow pills caused me drowsiness... All I noe is tat I wana come home n sleep... Reached home nearly midnite n afta shower, I had d best sleep ever... Cant wait to go pontian again. Duno y, but its d feeling of togetherness, d feeling of bonding n d feeling of a great family is there awaiting u... Honestly, its a memorable experinec n Im definitely looking forward to more of such... Wana write abt other stuffs tat been on my mind but I guess I'll leave it till 2mrw... Gotta do some work now... ;)
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JJ@2239hours, 21st November2006
Ive been kinda busy lately... Yes, especially wif Cicakman comin up. While Ac is pretty involve wif group promotion in Malaysia, I've gotta do mine here. N if tats not enuf, I've got meetings afta meetings wif regards to KRU n my own bisnes... But Im not complain... Juz tat I wan people to understand, n Im thkful my family n frends understands it very clearly. I love wat Im doin n I guess tat keeps me goin... Gona make my mil by Dec, next year I hope! Insya Allah
Jana's a new age tai tai for d new 2wks or so... She's in love... very very much in love n I noe she misses her Saint very much. Ahmad's in love as well, n Im glad tis time he's fated to meet d rite gerl. I juz hope it will work out for him. Firhan?? No idea... I guess he's in love wif his exams! lol. Syamie? In love. Definitely! Esp afta d quiet, small engagement they went thru d week b4 my party... I guess most peeps I noe r in love now... ;)
Even "her"!!! "She" is in love wif "him"... Its so obvious!!! B4 a frend told Jana abt it, I could sense n wen I met "her"!!! Its so clear-cut!!! hehe.. "She" never dolls ups before, but now "she" makes effort... "She" seldom wear black n now she does n also seen in skirt! hehehehe
Me jealos?? Nah... I dun tink so... Cos I noe myself too well,. I dun fall in love too easily. Thou I love "him" being around n njoy "his" company but I guess tats juz it...
Guess Im in love wif my werk... wif myself, my family n frends.... But sometimes i juz wonder...Who will b my knight in shining amour?? D one who manages to sweep my feet off d ground?? N most importantly, who's d one to make me believe in tis magis word named LOVE??
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JJ@17thNovember2006, 2216hours
~MY THANK YOU'S~
Ok here's a pretty long list so pls bear wif me :
1) First n foremost my parents
Thk u Mama for throwing d party n playing a great host to everyone. N to Ayah, thk u for wishin me juz b4 midnite (konon nak create history being d last person to wish... hehe)
But I guess thk u for all ur patience in bringing me up for d past 25yrs. Thk u for everyting cos I believe no words can describe my gratitute to u both.
2) Janna, my dearest sis
Thk u for d pink roses!!!! I shed a tear wen I receive it... Cos Im so touched. (Tot u din care but u actually made d effort!!!) Thk u!!! N thk u for being my "bitch", my shoulder to cry on, my shopping partner etc. Life would b so different for d next 3 mths wen Im there... n it will create bigger diff wen its ur turn to stay for 2 years... So I guess d distance will makes d heart grow fonder! (if u get wat I mean! hehe) Btw, u noe I love u from d bottom of my heart n I meant tat! No matter how much we bitch n squabble... But I guess tat creates d bonding.
3) Janz aka Wonda Janz
Yes! He's my WondaBoy... No words tp decribe tis superb brother of time... Despite d rain n all he is still so kewl n help ard... Not onli tat he played a good host ;)
4) Auntie Yam n Uncle Haq
All d way from Pontian!! Thk u! I'll visit u guys next Sat in pontian k... Yes!! I finally found out tat I've a kampong to go to!!! yeah!
5) Nenek!!
Terima kasih kerana menjaga ku dari lahir hingga kini... Cant write much lar cos d was she lady who took care of me from day 1 n I can b abit emo in tis stuffs..
6) Family n Relatives
Caca, Cik Odah, Yaya, Pak Lung, Abg Ami n Kak Long 2gthr wif their kids (Mama's side)
Mak Ngah, Pak Ngah, Mak Busu Temah n family, Abg Zai n family, Abg Wandy n family, Nek Hitam, Tok Hitam, Haziq, Shaiful, Tok Teh, Nek Teh n d list goes on n on
7) My beloved frends
Syamie n fiance (member da tunang!!), Kim, Karin n hubby Karmen, Kak liza, Wahijek n partner, Faizal n family, MTV ASIA crew (esp Anne who sneaked out from her site production juz to pay a visit..lurve u dear!), Ahmad n Ct, Firhan, Auntie Sal+Adi+Uncle, Fans of KRU+Adam
Thank u for taking time out of ur busy schedule to come to my small party... N thank u for being part of my life n makin my life journey a wonderful one.
Hope our life will b blessed afta tis. Lurve u peeps!
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JJ@2215hours, 12th November2006
I oughtta penn down my thank you's to d peeps but before all tat, let me start off by sharin some infos on how my party went...
Let's begin!
It was raining cats n dogs wen I reached shop. Wan Talha, d marhaban team were oredi there, getting ready to sing their praises to Allah. So I took my seat among 1 of d Umi-es. They sang , read prayers for Uncle Haq n Auntie Yam (tis pair is from Pontain n not my mum's sis as mention earlier thou they share d same name...hehe) who are goin for Haj on 23rd November. @ d same time, for my completion of my Bachelors' degree n my bday. N yes, I do regret sitting beside tis Umi cos afta d prayers, she eventually asked Mama if she could matchmake me to her 30year old son... Oh No!!! Tis wasnt wat Im looking for... Thou I would love to haf a boyfrend soon but no.. Not tis way... ;) I like d way Jana n Sin get 2gthr... Chill je... Tiba2 in love.. Realy happy for them!
@ard 4plus, d rain started to subside. I was afraid d weather mite cause d peeps a change of mind, and prevent them from coming over. But alhamdulilah, by 6pm most of my relatives and close frends were alreday here. Syamie came wif fiance, Fiza. Karin wif hubby Karmen, 2gthr wif Kim. firhan n Ahmad was there early... So lots n lotsa peeps... I was so nervous!
@7.30pm I had my cake cutting ceremony. My bday cake was superb!!! Chocolate sponge cake, wif strawberries all around it! Its so delicious tat it finishes in less than 30mins... I managed to keep a piece of it. hehe...
Peeps juz kept flowing in... D more d merrier... I love tat... Juz too bad, "he" cant make it. Otherwise it will b awesome... But still I had fun...
Here's d pixs to share wif:
Ok I'll write my thank you's in my next entry cos tis is getting alil lengthy... N Im getting hungry by tis time (hehe... Im always so hungry...).
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JJ@1804hours, 12th November 2006
sad but true...
d bday gerl doing all d cooking... ;(
well almoz all... Im gona cook mee soto n curry daging for roti kirai (aka rti jala) and thank God Ive aked Mama to order Nasi Ambeng from Makcik @Bussoroh Cafe. Minimise all d work.
sad but true...
Jana is bz wif her exams tat she didnt even help. Nor is she involve wif d party!!
But its not her fault. I juz wan her to do well in her exams. So good luck babe!
sad but true...
No boyfrend again tis year to celebrate it wif.
To make tings worse, its my 5th year celebrating bday w/o a boyfrend...
I juz hope ada hikmah behind all tis :)
sad but true
true but sad... sigh... gtg lar.
JJ@2118hours, 10th November2006
Tercipta Untukku - Ungu
Menatap indahnya senyuman
Di wajahmu
Membuatku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku
Banyak kata Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu
Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Di setiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku
(instrumen)
Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Di setiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Kuingin kau tahu
Ku slalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku
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Im so in love wif tis song or should I say Im totally in love wif Ungu?? Watever it is, tis is a very2 nice song. Go check it ya.
2 more days to go... ;)
Aniwae, I was suppose to get my graduation gown to wear this Saturday as part of d party props, but tings screw up. My institution here doesnt haf an xtra piece so Ive gotta get it from Ede n from KL. N guess wat, its so bloody cheap! RM120 rental for a week. Kewl rite? But d onli prob is tat I cant wear it tis Sat as it'll b ready onli on next Thursday. (Jana has been bugging to tag along... hehe... Da rindu Sein lar tu!) So I gotta go KL next Thurs, get it n return tat same nite... N will reshecule my photo studio on d Sat. My fault! Didnt check earlier...
So lesson learn : Never to take tings so light!
I duno noe y but I dun fil haf tis feeling last yr or previos years, but tis time, as d date draws closer I get more n more uneasy, panicky n juz totally not myself. I juz wish all will go well!
Many asked, wat do I wan for my bday... D onli answer I gaf to most is "Happiness". Its not tat Im not happy wif life now, dun mistook me... but I fil tat tings haf been so good recently tat I feel Ive got my bday present early.
Look @last week wen I visited Mak Busu. I tink tats d greatest bday gift ever for me... For her to juz hug me n forget all d stuffs tat caused us so much misery. Honestly, tats happiness. To be able to forgive n accept wif open arms.
Im blessed wif d people I haf around me at d moment. My family n frends, whom haf been so great. Topped it wif smooth-sailing journey in business. Alhamdulilah.
Honestly I cant wait for tis Sat. Hope it will b a great party!
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JJ@2119hours, 9thNovember2006
Ive been havin butterflies in my stomach since yesterday nite... Seriosly I duno y... But these butterflies are causin me alil uneasy... Honestly Im excited, looking forward to growing older n stuffs but at d same time, I dun fil good ;(
I lost my appetite n my gastric seems to b back. Could d butterflies in my stomach causing all tis? Aniwae lets countdown to 11th Nov. 3 more days to go n another chapter of life unfolds. Being 25 n havin lotsa responsibilities r never easy. Yet I never looked back n regret a single sweat n tears.
Wana write about Men n their unappreciativeness but I guess I'll leave it til 2mrw, cos Ive been known among my frends to b a lil sexist.. as I seemed to write alot abt d opposite sex in my previos blogs (not in tis 1 tho'..so lets not start now)
As for now, I juz wana get my appetite back ;)
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JJ@2225hours, 8thNovember2006
Having "him" around is always great... Someone to squabble wif, someone to discuss n share ideas, someone to make me smile ;) He's a great guy... I juz hope he'll find a great gerl, cos he truly deserves d best. (hope so! hehe)
Jana juz ended her 1st 2 papers... Heard her marketing was a bit tough, despite us adding d extra 2 Ps for d marketing rule... Apparently, it din help her! I juz hope she'll do well.
Ayah is comin home 2nite cos he got a check up 2mrw mrng @NUH. I hope everyting goes fine..
As for now, I juz wana chill, njoy d nite wif a big smile on my face...;) *Wait a min* Im not in love rite?? No I cant be... Yes very sure Im not... Ok enuf.. Let me do some reality check later!
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JJ@1829hours, 7thNovember2006
2day went over to Firhan's place for Raya Open House... Here's d p
ixs:
For those who didnt go to Firhan's place... RUGI BESAR!!! D food is fantastic! I ate 2 rounds of nasi brani, bone steak n end it wif cocktail! Yum yum... hehe ;) Thank God Ive great metabolism rate otherwise I'll end up like Queen Latifah! hehe...
Oh ya, if you are intending to invite me over to ur open house, please b sincere n at least invite a week in advance.. Not last minute sms... Ive receive 2 sms send in d aftanoon, to attend an open house later 2nite... Not my cup of tea... ;) If given a week, at least I can plan my schedule... Ni tak... Ish!
Aniwae, I learnt 1 very valuable lesson yesterday... D art of forgiveness... Phew! Im so glad its all over and now I can start my life anew wif my beloved aunt... Thank you Allah for answering my prayers ;)
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JJ@2014hours, 5thNovember2006
Yeah! Finally Ive got new blogskin... which I love so very much... Tis is me! White pink flakes, a cute bear at d side... Thanks to d greatest WONDERJANZ! lol
I was sick d whole day... Its tat time of d month, where all other illnesses tagteam 2gthr n created a turmoil in my body system... Causing so much chaos! But it was good as I finally got a day off to rest! It was raining heavily and I wished I could stay in bed d whole day... ;)
But Jana asked me along to haf dinner wif her, Firhan n Ahmad to celebrate Ahamd's belated 27th birthday... So it was alrite to juz eat n chill out later afta being confined in my bedroom for more than 12hours... But someting stupid happen afta dinner! hehe... But I wont embarass myself on a blog so let it b a secret btwn us! But it was real clumsy n stupid of me! hehe...
Ok I finally learnt how to upload pixs here! Ok ok Im a virgin at blogspot but hey, there's always a 1st time to everything! hehe...Aniwae now Im so excited to go over to Mak Busu Yam's place... U see, she's d one who moulded me to b what I am 2day... From d 1st day I was born till my poly days, she's always there... Be my true supporter, be my motivator, be my "Mom", be everyting... but eversince d dispute tat happened in 2000, Ive not seen her since then... She distance herself from us n everyone... But alhamdulilah, she's slowly opening doors for us. Im so thankful to Allah for answerin my prayers!!
Im gona get ready n will update you later...
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JJ@1140hours, 4thNovember2006
Yeah! Finally Ive got new blogskin... which I love so very much... Tis is me! White pink flakes, a cute bear at d side... Thanks to d greatest WONDERJANZ! lol
I was sick d whole day... Its tat time of d month, where all other illnesses tagteam 2gthr n created a turmoil in my body system... Causing so much chaos! But it was good as I finally got a day off to rest! It was raining heavily and I wished I could stay in bed d whole day... ;)
But Jana asked me along to haf dinner wif her, Firhan n Ahmad to celebrate Ahamd's belated 27th birthday... So it was alrite to juz eat n chill out later afta being confined in my bedroom for more than 12hours... But someting stupid happen afta dinner! hehe... But I wont embarass myself on a blog so let it b a secret btwn us! But it was real clumsy n stupid of me! hehe...
Ok I finally learnt how to upload pixs here! Ok ok Im a virgin at blogspot but hey, there's always a 1st time to everything! hehe...Aniwae now Im so excited to go over to Mak Busu Yam's place... U see, she's d one who moulded me to b what I am 2day... From d 1st day I was born till my poly days, she's always there... Be my true supporter, be my motivator, be my "Mom", be everyting... but eversince d dispute tat happened in 2000, Ive not seen her since then... She distance herself from us n everyone... But alhamdulilah, she's slowly opening doors for us. Im so thankful to Allah for answerin my prayers!!
Im gona get ready n will update you later...
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JJ@1140hours, 4thNovember2006
Yeah! Finally Ive got new blogskin... which I love so very much... Tis is me! White pink flakes, a cute bear at d side... Thanks to d greatest WONDERJANZ! lol
I was sick d whole day... Its tat time of d month, where all other illnesses tagteam 2gthr n created a turmoil in my body system... Causing so much chaos! But it was good as I finally got a day off to rest! It was raining heavily and I wished I could stay in bed d whole day... ;)
But Jana asked me along to haf dinner wif her, Firhan n Ahmad to celebrate Ahamd's belated 27th birthday... So it was alrite to juz eat n chill out later afta being confined in my bedroom for more than 12hours... But someting stupid happen afta dinner! hehe... But I wont embarass myself on a blog so let it b a secret btwn us! But it was real clumsy n stupid of me! hehe...
Ok I finally learnt how to upload pixs here! Ok ok Im a virgin at blogspot but hey, there's always a 1st time to everything! hehe...Aniwae now Im so excited to go over to Mak Busu Yam's place... U see, she's d one who moulded me to b what I am 2day... From d 1st day I was born till my poly days, she's always there... Be my true supporter, be my motivator, be my "Mom", be everyting... but eversince d dispute tat happened in 2000, Ive not seen her since then... She distance herself from us n everyone... But alhamdulilah, she's slowly opening doors for us. Im so thankful to Allah for answerin my prayers!!
Im gona get ready n will update you later...
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JJ@1140hours, 4thNovember2006
Ive been havin headaches.. Duno if its my wisdom tooth (Ive got 1 extracted n still got 3 more to go... so much for havin wisdom! hehe) or could it bcos its d time of d month... or could it b d weather... I duno... All I noe is afta tis entry, Im gona take my medicine n go to bed...
Lets start d series of tings tat happening for d past 3 days or so...
Monday 30thOctober
Dad went to clinic wif Mama to get his rashes check... @d same time, there's a lump behind his knee so he had to get it check.. Then d stupid doc frighten Mama said tat Dad's leg is serios n if its not taken care, haf to b amputated! WTF??? So Mama got worried n rushed to NUH... Dad was admitted, had his blood taken n all... I went to pay him a visit afta closing shop...He luks alrites tho'.
Tuesday 31st October
Dad's blood test results r out... N he's alrites... Very fine! Juz tat he's havin allergy! Phew! Alhamdulilah... So he was discharged... Nek Busu n family came over to pay Ayah a visit plus jalan raya skali... Tok Ayah came wif Mak Ngah n Pak Ngah... Honestly, Pak Ngah is Dad's best brother... Yang lain tak boleh harap!
So Ive gotta prepare my docs for Bali trip then I realise my passport went missing!!!!! Search high n low for it... But Janz, being d greatest brother in d whole wide universe.. continue to search n was very patient! I reali owe him one!! Then Bibik remembers where she chuck my Mango coin pouch .. In a Maybank paper beg n there's my passport!!! Ya Allah... its so chaotic!
Tis is my second time, misplacing my passport!!! D last time it was Langkawi trip... Then now its Bali trip!! Hope my trip will b fun... Janz following too! Juz wish Jana could come along... but she's more concern abt her darlz...
Wednesday 1st November
Ahhh... 10days to my birthday.... I finally signed Form45 yesterday... Like Ive told u guys earlier, I will share wif u wats happening... so here it is... Form 45= Letter of Appointment to b a company's director... N Norman has gave me d responsibilities to carries out d duties... Tho' he gave me d form on 20th Oct but I only managed to sign it yesterday afta tinkin through everyting...;) I juz hope I could do my best for d company... ;) Btw, he's comin tis Monday... Can test his new Z4! hehe... Btw, Jana nak courier ur darlz??? hehe...
I gtg... Wana check Jana's new blogskin.. Heard its kewl...
Ok peeps till then..
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JJ@2153hours, 01November2006