My 2006 Resolutions... Time to look back ;)
Was searchin high n low for my 2006 resolution n realise it's in my previos blog. Ok Im gona repost it here n lets recap if Ive managed to achieve any of those... hehe...
~Extracted from Cewek Jutek's Blog~
So wat's my resolutions? Let me share wif u guys lar, aite..
1) Be a better person
I've always believe tat watever u wana b or do, gotta start from within.. From urself... So I'm definitely wanting to b a better person as in, improve myself in alot of ways.. Like, brushing up on my Mandarin, learning Spanish (ooh la lal.. isnt tat sexy?) , learning new dishes to cook for my loved ones, learn to b more patient n control my temper etc.. D list will go on, but I hope Im able to b juz d way I am but in better condition at d end of d yr.. But most imptly is tat, I need to save more money.. Da plan nak kawin in 2008, which makes it 2yrs down d rd.. So, save more money then can throw a simple yet elegant wedding... wif live jazz band during dinner.. fantastic! hehe
Achieved!1. Ive learned new dishes, tats for sure. N I juz cant wait to cook for my boyfrend
2. Refer to point 1. Boyfrend???? hehe. Still single n available so lets keep cookin for family n frends instead. hehe
3. Control my temper!!! There is still d sting from me (being a scorpio doesnt help!) But Ive definitely tone down a lot
4. Alhamdulilah Ive managed to do 2 weeks of terawih during Ramadhan. ;)
Not Achieved ;(
1. Learn new languages... But picked up bits of Japanes n Spanish from tourists thou. hehe
2. Save money!!! Alamak!!! Tak jadi kawin 080808 cos too many ppl wana get marry tat day.. I can sense it cos my 070707 is fulled!! hehe
2) Being better daughter n sister
Yup yup.. I need to spend more time on Janz.. Cos its his N levels tis yr.. I wan him to do his best, make it to Sec 5, then go NS... after his 2yrs of NS, I can send him overseas for studies.. All planned for him.. Tats y I need to save money n do juz tat for him.. As for being better daughter, I juz need to reflect point 1.. Anger management coz lar.. tats wat I need.. I quarell too often wif Ayah.. so tis yr muz make up for those sins..
Achieved!1. Definitely in spendin time wif Janz n pushin him for good grades for his N's. So next yr will b d big O
2. Me n Ayah r much better now! hehe... Mayb cos he toned down as much as I do. N he's not so irritated! hehe.. Mayb cos he's busy wif work n so am I. So d moment we get 2gthr, it is quality time.
3) Being better entrepreneur
Finally, Ive started wif KRU Berhad, but me under KRU Spore Pte Ltd... Doin mktg n all, juz like wat Ive been doin all tis while.. My 1st project is Anita Sarawak.. Some r rather skeptical of me joining them but watever it is, I juz wana gif it a shot.. Opportunity comes once in a lifetime... I dun mind turning down offers from Petronas n Shell.. cos Im sure Im able to get a place anytime should d bisnes falls... But tis is diff baby! Ive juz gotta gif it a shot... Not onli tat, so far, my bridal bisnes is also pickin up..N if Im able to cope wif both, d sense of satisfaction is definitely great! So juz pray for me aite..
Achieved!1. I tink I did well for KRU Singapore; established networks, sold a few progs, getting recognition n our 1st Sporean act. If not Norman wldnt offer me d Directorship! hehe. But I guess d trust he placed in me n honesty between us is there, so it's so easy to make our workin relationship work. N its so easy to work wif him.. Believe it or not. Honestly I had fun n didnt regret a second!
2. Jihan By Mona J is startin to b recognised as 1 of d most established, reliable wedding planner. N I am so happy to see d results.. Cos I can see tat next yr I will extra busy... As of 2day, I haf almost 20 weddings to plan for next yr. Alhamdulilah ;)
Alhamdulilah. I tink Ive achieved most of my resolutions n Im glad tat tis yr, it has a been a great, wonderful n joyful year. Ive shed my tears, jumped for joy n worked my butts out to get tings goin smoothly. Thank to those who've been prayin for me n my success. Thank u!
My 2007 resolutions???? Will update u guys by end of tis wk. Till then ;)
Outz
JJ@1917hours, 26thDecember2006
Season to b jolly!
Its a great, great week! N Im so blessed!!
Lets recap.
Monday 18thDec
Was ready to go to shop wen I receive a call from my pengantin, Farhanah. 1st ting tat came to my mind was "oh god, wat now?? dun tell me she's not hapi??" Im always prepared for d worst, thou I noe I had a great team; Cik Mad for deco n Kak Syi for andaman, but still always expect d worst. But alhamdulilah, it turned to b gd! She is so hapi wif everything. N Im so glad to b part of her very memorable event ;)
To Farhanah: Thk u dear for ur faith n trust in us. N u reali make my day! love u lots!
Then hours later, Janz's results. Fantastic
Tuesday 19thDec
Another great news. Dad won Employee of d Year! Dad, dad.... How lucky he is. His old company FMC Technologies, called him up n offered him this job afta he left d co. 12 years ago to do bisness. Lucky ol' man!
Wednesday 20thDec
Mama was nominated for Woman Entrepreneur of d Year organized by SMCCI. But Mama didnt win. Instead they gaf to 2 yound n greenhorn in d bisness, 1 a franchise n d other a spa which isnt as great as Indriani Spa in Jalan Bukit Bintang.
But Mama had already won Spririt of Entrepreneurship 2003 n tis is recognised by others out of Malay community. N not only tat, she get recognition from President George Bush n wife during 1 of d charity events held in US, for she sponsored her outfits. Its a charity for cancer foundation in both years, 2004 n 2006.
To Mama: Im proud of u! U dun need d award lar... U had plenty! Yg penting our bisness flourish n we can get to make our dreams come true... hehe
Thrusday21stDec
Bil turned 29!!! Oh mi god! He's reachin d big 3-0 next year!! Gosh...
Finally received my BA (Hons) cert from d sch. It took a year to arrive... Punya lar lama! Takpe sabar, sabar... hehe
Friday22ndDec
Norman called me up in d evenin wif a piece of very good news. CICAKMAN will b showin in Sg!!!!! Hip hip hurray! He juz met d manager @JB so we can plan for January screening. Confirm happening. I cld sense he's beamin! Keching! (mayb it shld b at least 7x eh?? hehe)
Ok so now, Im planning for tat to happen.
Sat23rdDec
Nothing much. But a surprise visit from Kak Cun n family from Jkt. D whole family is here n she's expecting!!! Way to go! Hopefully its a gerl tis time round. She's got 2 good lookin boys.. so I bet d gerl (if its a gerl) will turn out fantastic
Sun24thDec
Drizzling but d weather's kinda kewl. Was @ shop then head for town.
Played pool wif Zul n Shaik (yes, its d Bukit Binatang Shaik! lol) Janz tried pool for d 1st time n yes, he's pickin up fast... Lets not go to balck being a gd absorber of heat... hehe... Only those who were there will understand ;)
Orchard was like NEW YORK... teringat pada seorang member di KL wen he 1st came to Sg "Fuyoo Zain, SG ni mcm New York!!" hehe... tats Bad fyi.
In a nutshell, I had a great n blessed wk. I hope more of such weeks will come ;)
For my frends celebratin Xmas; Kim Wong, Vince n Vanessa Chong, Sheela of New Paper, Zach of X-Factor n many other; Merry Xmas n may god bless u!
Outz
JJ@0024hours, 25thDecember2006
Fly me to d moon ;)
Yesh!!! Im estatic! Overjoyed and definitely beamin from ear to ear. I guess all my efforts for d past months has definitely been fruitful ;)
Im talking abt my lil brotha, Janz. D long awaited results was finally out juz now at 2pm. N u should fill my heartbeat... It's thumping, pounding, thumping again n pounding again... Its as if Im d one who took d exams n waited for results. But honestly, everyone was anxious! Auntie Sal called cos she couldnt get thru Adi (lol) and I called her cos I cant get thru Janz. It was crazy! Then at 2.45pm exactly here's my conversation wif Janz.
Janz: "Helo Kak G.... (long pause... I was filling shitty by now) Guess where Im goin next year"
Me: " Where??"
Janz: " Ive made it to Sec 5! Ive got 8points! "
By then, tears juz streamed down my cheek. Alhamdulilah, Janz made it!
I recalled those times. It was during Ramadhan tat Janz's N levels happened. I had to get up early in d morning. Go to shop, help Mum out wif her business, then at 3plus buy makan for buka before heading home. I had to teach Janz. We had rest in between cos its Ramadhan. Afta buka, we continued again. Then late at nite, its d time I allocate for my KRU work. Read mails, check outstanding jobs, follow up wif my business operations etc. It continued for 2 strait strong weeks. But alhamdulilah its paid off now.
Honestly, I told my mum n siblings later in d evening. Its not easy being d eldest. A lot of responsibilities tat awaits u. For me, I haf a role of being a daughter tat helps out wif d business, a role of a sister tat moulds n educates my siblings, a role of an entrepreneur; juggling my own bis n KRU (which is juz like my own) and d list goes on.
Tats y I put my love life as my last priority in life. Its not sad... Pls dun b! Its juz tat Ive got so much tings to do esp moulding n coachin my 2 lil siblings to b someone very useful to d nation. N I believe by givin them d best education, it will b their asset in life. I dun mind d sacrifisement... Cos I noe, not many r willing to. Besides, there r others who went thru more shits than I do. As for now, my main focus is to make my millions and also to make sure Janz get d best O level results. Not forgetting, for Jana to b in d best Uni.
1st chapter of Janz's life was unfold earlier and O levels is wat he's got to face in 2007. I am definitely waiting to go thru d phase, d same phase Ive earlier went thru.
N definitely, NO REGRETS! Tats my style...
Outz
JJ@2224hours, 18thDecember2006
In 5 years time
Ive made plans for myself... a short term plan I would say... cos its only for d next 5 years...
Wat do I really wana achieve in d next 5 years??? Ive been asking myself. But deep down I noe wat I want in life and here's my plan:
1) I will b 30 by then so I've always aimed to make my mil b4 d age 30. So I hope by then, not onli haf I make my 1st mil... but lotsa mills.
2) I've always wanted to do my Masters but d time isnt rite. For next yr, its gona b Jana's turn to do her degree or maybe d year afta (depends on d ching, ching, ching). But wat I noe for sure, I will definitely haf my MSc in International Business Management within d next 5 years. Mayb my hantaran set can come wif an entry to Nottingham Uni?? Hehe.. Org tak pernah buat... so mite as well... Dari rantai Chopard who looks like a stone from d wreck Titanic, mite as well gif me d cash for my postgrad programme... ;)
3) A family of my own. Ive always fil tat wen someone is successful wif his/her career, he/she muz top it up wif a great family of his/her own. Juz like KD. Young, make lotsa money, successful singer, mum and wife. A total package. Tats wat I aim to b in d future.
4) Branches in Kuala Lumpur. At least 2 outlets. My 1st aim has always been Great Eastern Mall, in Ampang. So hopefully Im able to do tat by end of next yr. Then d next one in Damansara area... Planning.. still planning... hehe
But again, kita merancang Tuhan menentukan... I am reali working very hard to achieve d above and make them turn into reality... Insya Allah dgn berkat doa everyone, my hardwork will pay off.
Ok gtg. My stomach hurts suddenly.
Outz
JJ@2203hours, 15thDecember2006
Green wif jealousy
Ive been wanting to write tis down eversince last few weeks... I tink someone is jealous of me....Who??? Mana leh cakap... hehe... Aniwae, Ive been observin "her" for d past weeks and I suspected tat "she" is d one... D reason??? Simple...Cos Im close to "him". But I tot I was over sensitive, so I juz shut d idea to myself. Till, a few days back wen someone told me "Eh, she likes him lar.. Tats y she is jealous of u" hehehe... Apa saje!
Ive been wanting to share wif him but I haven been talking to "him" fo almost a week cos he is bz wif werk n all. I understand tat so wen "he" called me up 2day... it was so good to hear from "him". Bukan ape, "he" is sum1 who understands my whole situation and most important, he understands me. So we chat for anit and her issue came into our conversation. Even without me sayin d above matter, he told me this, "I can see tat she's jealous of u". I laughed my whole heart out!!! Buat ape nak jealous?? Serios shit, I dun understand! N worst, "she" questioned about me. to him....Nasib baik, he's isnt d sort yang akan termakan dgn cakapan org2. N i muz thank him for d trust he placed in me. Bila pikir balik, tergelak jugak... Kenapa dia jeles sangat???!!!
If tats not enuf, "she" did mentioned some aweful stuffs abt me....Ok tat is alil overboard. But I always recall wat Norman used to tell me, " People will talk bad tings abt u, spread aweful stuffs abt u... wen u haf reached tat certain level... N tat is wen u haf reached a successful stage... In another words, U are successful"
Though Im still climbing up d stairs of success, there will always b people trying to bring me down. N I dun gif a shit to these people... Cos I will continue climbing up... N d harder u try bringing me down, d harder I will fite back...
Aniwae Im juz so happy to hear from "him" n to know tat he trust me juz makes me fills so good... As for now, I juz wana chill n wait for d new year!
Oh ya, 2day finally dpt mkn ikan pari bakar... ZAIN!!!!!! Everytime mkn ikan pari bakar mesti teringatkan Zain, cos tat is his fav! Topped it wif teh tarik!! hahaha...
Ok lar, wana catch Project Runway 3... Take care peeps!
Outz
JJ@2215hours, 12December2006
D past few days, it been food, food n more food... Makan, makan n makan...A lot of invitations so its a great opportunity to eat n also catch up wif frends.
9thDec
Went to shop as usual. But @ard5plus, me n Jana went over to Abg Jo Sanbtai's place. His baby gerl, Alya Kalysa (beautiful name rite??) turns a moth n half old. So ada lar kenduri... It was great food n members of Merbuk Platoon were there too. So lotsa laughters, bitching n kacau-ing people... haha..
10thDec
Went to Ahmad Syakir's place in Pasir Ris. Serios shit d journey was so damn far! Its like from KL to KLIA... N worst wen I alighted at Tampines, d crowd was superb!! It was so crowded tat it looked like Orchard Road.. My my! Now I truly appreciate d quiet ambience of Bukit Panjang... Thou its like USJ, a lil off, but its quiet n kewl place... Pening beb bila npk org ramai sgt!!! hehe...
Afta Ahmad's place I was dragged by Jana to Imm. Damn it! Ive not done tis for ages.. D last artiste I was so crazy abt was KRU n tat was ages ago... Now sampai da jelak tgk they all... hehe... Jana juz wana mit Taufik upclose n person (as if she hasnt!! duh!) So was there for an hour or so. Then went back.
Ayah went back wif Putra n Azmi, back to Nusajaya.
Aniwae, happy birthday Taufik!
11thDec
A mth afta Ive turned 25. I am excited to c wat d future brings... A definitely looking forward to a great year ahead. N pls my dear frends, Im over my ex ok? Its juz tat day I was lil emo but overall Im alrite... Chill aite?
Abg Ami came wif Nek Busu, Cik CT, Cik Naya... Abg Ary came wif fiancee to c some of their wedding stuffs... Yes, Im engaged as their wedding planner so I'll b totally busy planning for both side on 070707... Juz hope I'll do a good job.
Btw b4 I signed off, wana congrats Yusry n team of KRU esp KRU Films for an impressive collection of RM1.3million only afta 4days of screening in d whole entire Msia!! Awesome! Cicakman created history as it is d 1st CGI Malay produced film in Msia and on d 1st day of screening, we managed to collect RM350,000. D 1st ever local movie to do so! Kudos to Yusry n team of KRU! Im so proud to b part of it! hehe...
So do catch Cicakman in theatres in Msia.. Its a great movie! Till then.
Outz
JJ@2228hours, 11thDecember2006
Ok finally I got some quiet moment to write down d happenings for d past wk... So hope u'll njoy reading my lengthy entry.. hehe;)
27th Nov
Pasha Ungu's birthday!
I packed my bag in d morning, check my mails then left for shop later... Had lunch and then went up to my bridal/boutique to prepaer all d outfits for tat wk pengantin... 4 different customers with 4 couple sets.. So imagine all d outfits, matching samping, tudong etc I had to prepare for all my make up artis... Usually they'll do so but since Im leaving for KL-Bali I mite as well prepare for them to avoid any screw up jobs... Had dinner and finally closed shop @9pm.. Walked strait to Golden Mile for my coach...
28thNov
Reached KL ard 3.30am. Sein was supposed to fetched but I guess he's tired afta badminton session wif d rest... So me n Jana juz walked to our hotel.. Alah, very nerby pun n we've always do tat.. So no hal lar... Rested...
Had lunch wif Sein n Bajaz b4 doin minor shopping... Went back to hotel n get ready for d grand premiere. Honestly, d show was excellent! But a few hiccups lar here n there n I guess d service to d press n fans wasnt there. Very lacking of it. Aniwae I was so pissed off wif someone but gaf a pc of my mind.. Tu pun sikit blom kena yg lashin lagi... But aniwae meeting Zain afta tat juz helped to put tat aside... Zain as usual; handsome, funny, talkative n now he's quit smoking, he's made himself d perfect n ideal man of Msia... hehe ;) Bad was kewl too.. Shared his 1st experience of Sg.. Kelakar giler!
29th Nov
Mak Busu Yam's bday. Managed to kol her n she's surprised tat I still remember... So glad tat its all so fin now... Went to ofis for meeting wif Norman, Phil, Edry n Johan abt nx yr's international's plans. Cldnt focus. Mayb cos of ystday n also something's tat been stuck in my head for d past days... Nvrmd...
Janz was up in Kl by himself.. So as usual, we had our rounds of shopping...
30th Nov
Headed for KLIA from hotel... Reached ard 11am. Way too early but then since we r meeting some people there so mite as well b early. Took flite @1450hours n landed @1750hours.
D 1st impression of Bali was great. D hospitality, d frendliness of people n d heat was juz awesome.
1st December
Shopping and more shopping!!! Ralph Laurens, Ripcurls, Quilsilvers ar so bloddy cheap... So all I do juz swip, swip n swip my card... Gotta see my bill at d end of tis mth... hehe.. but honestly, its not enuf! Im gona come here wif my bunch of frends n esp Jana n her dada... Cos tis kinda heaven oughta b shared.
2nd December
Back to KLIa then to SG
Bali = Heaven for shoppin, water sports (which I didnt do due to time constraint) n good lookin tan ang mohs... hehe
Will b back!! Tats for sure!!
For now gotta mkn then catch Ruffedge (my brothers n Zain!!! haha) performing on TV3 for they are being nominated in AJL Pop Rock.
Outz
JJ@8thDecember, 2007hours
Actually 2day I've planned to penn down wat happened last wk; my kl trip, Cicakman grand premiere, my Bali trip etc. but d existence of tis lady I met earlier d day made me changed my mind...
I've not seen her for almoz 5 years. N 2day she stood rite in front of my boutique. She still looked d same, juz a lil fatter n yes, she still recognizes me... I was speechless. Yet I still took her hand to kiss it as Ive always did (a form of respect for d elderly). At tat very moment, I juz wished I wasnt there. Cos d presence of tis lady brought back lotsa memories for me... I acted like everyting's normal... Smiled n chatted like Ive always do but d sentences she left me wif, almoz brought a tear.. She said, "Walaupun Jihan dah takde jodoh dgn xxx, kalo npk cik kat luar tegor ye. Ni cik nye address n no. tel. Senang2 kol. Jihan mmg baik orgnye.. cik doakan Jihan ketemu jodoh yg baik"
Yes... She's d lady tat I've known for almoz 9 over years... My ex-bf's mum. Though she wasnt a perfect role model mum, but she's there to listen wen tings didnt work out for us. Sigh. Her son is now happily married, expecting a baby n a new home... Im happy for him.
Honestly, I myself duno wat Im truly feelin. Im not clinging to d past.. Ive long put it all behind me. Its juz tat wen I see tis lady, I started to reminisce all d past... N mayb its true, tis heart of mine has yet healed.. But isnt 5 years long enuf to heal a broken heart?? I guess mine hasnt.
I duno wen it will...
But I hope Allah will give me d strength to pull thru tis worst obstacle in life... I prayed to HIM every single day tat I will meet d rite man; d one who will heal tis broken heart. d one who will lead me n my future family and very importantly, d one who will love me wif all his heart.
I dun wana write too much. Cos d more I write, d more I'll b tinkin of my past, which I do not want to!!!! I shall leave u guys to njoy d lyrics of my fav. song
Bukan Diriku- Samson
setelah kupahami
ku bukan yang terbaik
yang ada di hatimu
tak dapat kusangsikan
ternyata dirinyalah
yang mengerti kamu
bukanlah diriku
kini maafkanlah aku
bila ku menjadi bisu
kepada dirimu
bukan santunku terbungkam
hanya hatiku berbatas
tuk mengerti kamu
maafkanlah aku
reff:
walau kumasih mencintaimu
kuharus meninggalkanmu
kuharus melupakanmu
meski hatiku menyayangimu
nurani membutuhkanmu
kuharus merelakanmu
dan hanyalah dirimu
yang mampu memahamiku
yang dapat mengerti aku
ternyata dirinyalah
yang sanggup menyanjungmu
yang lama menyentuhmu
bukanlah diriku
kembali reff
outz
JJ@7thDecember2006, 2055hours
I fil like shit! Been wanting to blog abt it but I juz fil so sick n tired!
It took me almost 3 months to get this stupid show for them... D dates kept changing and even till last min, a lot of miscommunication btwn me n their PA. Tat I actually didnt wana go for it. But someone calm me down n afta tinking, " ok fine, I'll juz go n chill".
As if d shit stops there, during d trip had to face more shits! D demands, d "treat me like a king" stuff juz didnt end there... It dragged till we touched down at KLIA.
N if tats not shity, it drags till 2day. A couple extended their stay n due to security reasons passports were held within d organizers. Organizers are supposed to escort d couple back to d airport 2day at noon. But due to their impatienceness, they demanded d passports back n now, they r being remanded by d imigration.
Honestly, I had enuf! Dun treat me like shit! Ive put in so much effort to make tis happen n its not even worth d time n effort. D 15% wasnt event enuf to cover my fone bills, not to say my sweats n tears.
I noe nothing comes easy but tis is real shity! I reali cant take tis anymore! No point being a role of a Samaritanian but in d end of d day wen tings screw up, fingers were being pointed to u...
I GAVE UP!
JJ@2059hours, 5thDecember2006