I think I am done with crying.Cos all my tears have all dried up.
Just like any relationship break up, we learned to let go and move on. The scar will remain just like a tattoo in my heart.
Outz JJ@1stJuly2009, 008hours
Monday, June 29, 2009 @12:46 PM
Songs
The songs I put on repeat mode:
Shayna Zaid- Gotta Get Up Introduced by Aina dear. Love her for this. One of the few people who showed love despite the distance.
Mario - If I Hurt You
Michael Jackson - Man in the mirror
Monday, June 22, 2009 @10:33 PM
Knock you down
Hmmm, I have not been blogging for some time. The mood to blog just kills me or maybe my mind's pretty blocked out. Too many things to be written; some are better left unwritten. Too many fake people out there.It's getting harder to find people who's keeping it real.
Anyway, enjoy my favorite track for this week:
Outz JJ@22ndJune2009, 2300hours
Sunday, June 14, 2009 @8:05 PM
Perfect weekend
I had one of the best weekend ever; a perfect weekend I would say. Perfect weekend means being able to do things that I've been wanting to do like watch a musical, satisfy my cravings, enjoy great company and shopping!
I was invited by Kak Yana (of Q & Que) to attend Gentarasa. I had dragged Jana to accompany me for this, otherwise she'll just gonna stick her lazy bum at home. lol. For 1st time, they did a musical. The theme was, "Bapak Borek, Anak Cerdik". The script was super hilarious and the whole concept was just different. Its about the Malay community moving towards the millenium but still sticking to your roots. So there's zapin, silat, bahgra dance and hiphop towards the end. 2 songs in the hiphop era was composed and written courtesy by Rif. Kudos to the team for putting up a great show!
We were super hungry once the musical's done. My craving for mee soto and gado-gado was so intense that we rushed to AMK central for the best of the best. Who else if if's not Pak Yunos (aka Hady's dad) stall! wakakaka. Ok I'm a glutton every time I'm at his place. But its super satisfying!
In the evening I headed to SPH News Center as my boys had to do PC for Kelab Obor. The questions from the students were just amazing! No one would have thought of these questions, but they did.
And today, I was all alone in Causeway point doing my mini shopping. Lol. Mini... cos it's buying the amenities. I spend almost an hour at Watson, grabbing whatever is needed (and some not! hehe). Sometimes, you just need to spend time alone. I felt good honestly.
Let's look forward to another great weekend.
ps: I'm on all smiles again... thanks to you ;)
Outz JJ@14thJune2009, 2025hours
Tuesday, June 09, 2009 @10:51 PM
No Boundaries
My favorite from Kris Allen, Heartless:
But at this moment this has to be THE song for me. The right song for the right moment. Finally the chapter has closed. A new chapter has just been unfold. Alhamdulilah.
Seconds, hours, so many days You know what you want, but how long can you wait? Every moment last forever. When you feel you've lost your way.
What if my chances were already gone? I started believing that I could be wrong. But you give me one good reason. To fight and never walk away.
So here I am, still holding on
With every step, you climb another mountain Every breath, it's harder to believe You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes To get to that one thing.
Just when you think the road is going nowhere Just when you almost gave up on your dreams They take you by the hand and show you that you can There are no boundaries. There are no boundaries.
I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge What if today is as good as it gets? Don't know where the future's heading But nothing's gonna bring me down I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line I risked being safe but I always knew why I always knew why
So here I am, still holding on
With every step, you climb another mountain Every breath, it's harder to believe You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere Just when you almost gave up on your dreams They take you by the hand and show you that you can
You can go higher, you can go deeper There are no boundaries above and beneath you Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you And your dreams
With every step, you climb another mountain Every breath, it's harder to believe
Yeah, there are no boundaries There are no boundaries
With every step, you climb another mountain Every breath, it's harder to believe You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
There are no boundaries. There are no boundaries. There are no boundaries.
Outz JJ@9thJune2009, 2257hours
Sunday, June 07, 2009 @11:52 PM
New chapter
I felt much better cause I know there's so many people out there who are so concern about my well-being. They just want me to be happy. They showed me the love and support I needed. Therefore I've decided to put a full stop to it and start afresh.
I'm gonna put my feet back on the ground, stand up tall, stay focus and continue the fight. I can't disappoint them.
Friday street launch turned out to be good. Aina, Karrot and Luna came all the way from KL to show support, which made me feel touched. Seriously! We had so much fun having dinner followed by chilling session after the event. They bunked over which was so dope! Its been a while since I had guests sleeping over. We chatted till 4am! hahaha.
We did some shopping in the afternoon yesterday. Later in the evening, I took them to R&P 10th year anniversary. It's a celebration for our local hiphop scene. The turn out was good. Met old friends like Shafii and Jboy. Hang around for a while.
So ClassiQ is finally out! It's a super dope album. We've put in everything we could in this; tears, sweats, joys and laughters not forgetting the late nights. Hope you'll enjoy the album as much as we do ;)
I'm starting another new chapter in life.
Ya Allah, please give me the strength to go through this. The tunnel is such a long long way before I could see the light. But with your guidance I'm sure I will. Amin.
Outz JJ@8thJune2009, 1218hours
Wednesday, June 03, 2009 @10:31 PM
Upset
I've never been so upset in my life before. And this is the longest period ever! But it just happened. Gosh! I tried to hide it but only my family knows how I felt. They avoid talking about it and try giving me the best support ever. That's the reason why I love them.
Even the 2 APM nominations couldn't make up for what I felt. Btw, Fiq got the most nominations but he's away in Korea. I only managed to speak to Min on the phone after the PC to share the good news. Of cos, more stories later.
Janz asked,"Are you angry?" To be honest, I don't know what to feel any more! I'm the type who always and forever keep thinking about others while putting myself last. I always think about how others will feel, how others will react, this and that... I've never spare a thought about how I felt, or to be exact, how I will feel if things turn out this way. Then I realize it's about time I stop being too nice and draw the line. Period!
I don't wanna talk about this any more. It's wearing me out.
Just one of my favorites these days:
Trey Songz
Happy birthday dearest Si Wei!
Outz JJ@3rdJune2009, 2254hours
& PROFILE
Jihan
being perfectionist and meticulous
being independent
cooking for my loved ones (yes, I love to cook!)
carrying my own bag!
putting a smile on others
(It onli take a few seconds of ur life to lit up sum1's day... n if u manage to put a smile on tat person's face in d mrng, it could last him/her d whole day...
My philosophy in life...)